Saturday, May 17, 2008
Boring Weekend
Its a saturday today. Yet, here i am wasting my weekend online, and being left rotting alone at home cos everyone is out. Sux. Its not how a weekend should be spent. Not like this.
The next thing u wanna ask is, where is ur bf? Yea. He is having a gathering with his friends at mind's cafe, playing board games at this very moment now i supposed. He asked me along, but i refused cos i know i'll feel out of place. Don't know his friends well, and have nothing in common to talk to them about. Besides, i dun feel very welcomed esp after one of his girl friends (someone i dun really like actually) asked, "oh, u not joining us on sat rite?" Does that sounded welcoming? Not at all. Oh well. Anyway, i have no intention of joining them in the first place.
I was then supposed to be gg to sentosa this afternn with my poly friends. But i woke up only at 12 plus noon cos i went out last night to meet a friend for a drink, and came back quite late this morning. Din sleep much, and i was very tired in fact. Anyway, i feel so broke to do anything, to go anywhere. I really needed a job, desperately. Finally laid my hands on the newspaper, and i was flipping thru the classified section this afternoon to see if there were any interesting jobs available. Unfortunately, not much. I went to register myself as a tutor with a few online tution centres/agencies. But then again, i don't know if i can teach in the first place. Never gave tuition, and i never had tuition in my life before. Yea. And i seriously have no idea what tuition is all about.
Mm. Been feeling quite emotional nowadays. I dunno why. Felt very sad and lonely today. My world felt so empty esp when i was left home alone. Nothing nice was showing on Tv, so it was switched off. The whole place became very quiet, all u can hear is the noise of the fan, and i just felt so empty deep within me. Then i decided to text *you, but there was no reply. So i called, and i could tell *you were having alot of fun from the laughters in the background. I guess i sounded quite unhappy becos i thought we could be spending the day together. I wanted to ask *you to leave your friends earlier to join me for dinner or something at least, but i thot i shouldn't be so selfish cos i know *you don't really meet up with them very often. And yea, i supposed everyone needed some space, to do the things they want, or to be with their friends. But i was really bored, and i almost wanted to ask a friend (who happened to be in the east) to go for a movie or something, but i know *you probably won't be happy with it. yea. so i guess maybe i should just rot in front of my laptop.
The next thing u wanna ask is, where is ur bf? Yea. He is having a gathering with his friends at mind's cafe, playing board games at this very moment now i supposed. He asked me along, but i refused cos i know i'll feel out of place. Don't know his friends well, and have nothing in common to talk to them about. Besides, i dun feel very welcomed esp after one of his girl friends (someone i dun really like actually) asked, "oh, u not joining us on sat rite?" Does that sounded welcoming? Not at all. Oh well. Anyway, i have no intention of joining them in the first place.
I was then supposed to be gg to sentosa this afternn with my poly friends. But i woke up only at 12 plus noon cos i went out last night to meet a friend for a drink, and came back quite late this morning. Din sleep much, and i was very tired in fact. Anyway, i feel so broke to do anything, to go anywhere. I really needed a job, desperately. Finally laid my hands on the newspaper, and i was flipping thru the classified section this afternoon to see if there were any interesting jobs available. Unfortunately, not much. I went to register myself as a tutor with a few online tution centres/agencies. But then again, i don't know if i can teach in the first place. Never gave tuition, and i never had tuition in my life before. Yea. And i seriously have no idea what tuition is all about.
Mm. Been feeling quite emotional nowadays. I dunno why. Felt very sad and lonely today. My world felt so empty esp when i was left home alone. Nothing nice was showing on Tv, so it was switched off. The whole place became very quiet, all u can hear is the noise of the fan, and i just felt so empty deep within me. Then i decided to text *you, but there was no reply. So i called, and i could tell *you were having alot of fun from the laughters in the background. I guess i sounded quite unhappy becos i thought we could be spending the day together. I wanted to ask *you to leave your friends earlier to join me for dinner or something at least, but i thot i shouldn't be so selfish cos i know *you don't really meet up with them very often. And yea, i supposed everyone needed some space, to do the things they want, or to be with their friends. But i was really bored, and i almost wanted to ask a friend (who happened to be in the east) to go for a movie or something, but i know *you probably won't be happy with it. yea. so i guess maybe i should just rot in front of my laptop.
posted by Huilin at 7:37 PM
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